I Hope I Die

 

I Hope I Die

 I hope I die tonight
peacefully in my sleep
while I’m unconsciously twitching
and counting no sheep

I hope I die tomorrow
while hardly feeling fulfilled
making an argument I don’t believe in
for something not worth it, I’ll be killed

I hope I die in a car accident
one where I’m to blame
an act of revenge for getting cut off
by someone with considerable fame

I hope I die fifty years from now
when I find this and read it aloud
a sniper’s bullet while giving a speech
in front of a one-person crowd

I hope I die holding you
staring deep into your eyes
with your hands wrapped around my neck
it’ll come as no surprise

I hope I die in your memory
if there’s still room in there for me
you’ll forget me when I’m gone
and I will smile, thankfully

I hope I die on television
during a live broadcast
I don’t care how it gets done
as long as it’s not too fast

I hope I die on an adventure
to whereabouts unknown
but I hope I make it there first
so I can eternally lay down alone

I hope I die before I finish this
so I don’t have to think of an ending line
like something that reflects on me
a depressing finish, truly mine

I hope I die alone
in a room that’s full of mirrors
so that I may watch myself
and count my final tears

I hope I die alone…